Tuesday, March 21, 2006
blabberings
If you live alone in a house at the top of the steep mountain slope, and everyday you gotta spend 1 hours climbing that slope to get to your house, will you one day decide that you don't want to return home?
i think perhaps i'd opt not to. i might get sick of it. i might even rather sleep on the streets than to walk any further.
What if your family is in there?
Maybe i'll persist a bit further. but most prob i'll still end up getting sick of it, especially when you know that there's no one waiting for you to come home anyway.
What if your house is on a mountain so tall, and a slope so steep, that no matter how far you climb, u can't see it?
if tt's the case, i'll believe that there's actually no house there at all.
hrm. i'm actually trying to describe what i was thinking of on the way home today. Yes perhaps its because i've sat for 2 sucky paper consecutively. Perhaps it's also because these 2 weeks had been the runner-up in my chart of the most horrible times of my life. But seriously and rationally, i think i'm beginning to lose sight of the "house" at the end of the tedious climb, and i really don't know why am i going on if its really that horrible.
if OT is the cause of my fatigue, then y shd i continue? Am i really an aspiring OT? on the contrary, i think i'm getting abit too jaded to benefit my future patients with any innovative ideas and energy and hope. Do i really want to be an OT? hrm. given the circumstances by which i landed on this course, perhaps it wasn't entirely my choice. Given the personality that i have, perhaps i'm too stone-hearted to be in the caring profession. If the answers are all so negative, y did i stay on? because i'm poor and i have no $$ to repay the bond? because there's nothing else for me to do?
Or maybe, i'm not feeling motivated because i don't feel any bond with the profession.
if it's LIFE that is tiring, then y shd i continue? What do i want to become? Do i really want to be the way i am? If not, y did i continue living?
What is holdng me back in life? what is my hidden motivator to push on? Perhaps it's societal norms that's askin me to keep going on. Perhaps its just because i'm too much of a coward to seek death.
Or maybe, i'm not feeling motivated because i don't feel any connection with the world in general.
the feeling i have is that i'm not living my own life. i'm continuosly being compelled to do something because i'm expected to. i'm unhappy about being forced to do something, yet i'm also too much of a coward to not do anything and face the conequences.
it's like, you know nowadays, everyone expects you to be both an indiv and group player? Having to work in groups is fine. just that i realise that as time pass by, because you are a group player, you are expected to be always a group player in that group. So let's say you're home and you're ready to unwind and relax, and your groupmate called to discuss the work. You are expected to jump straight back into the role of the team player. The effects of having too many commitments with group shows when you have lotsa groups. You're basically left with no time for yourself.
This reminds me of the saying: one tend to treat the one closest the worst. Closest, to many, may seem to be your family, your close friends etc. But actually, the one closest to you is yourself. Frankly speaking, how much time do you spend getting in touch with yourself? It just seem like a whole big joke when a businessman can spend hours video-conferencing with the client over in the other half of the globe, and yet have no time to answer the question that you ask yourself: hey, is this really the life that i want?
it doesn't pay to self-indulge, because you will be one of the odd one outs of the population that sacrifices all their time and energy with the paper chase, be it qualification or bank notes.
So, by spending the time to write out my thoughts, am i actually spending time to get in touch with myself? By not wanting to be the "outcast" of the main culture, am i tryin to stay "belonged"?
Perhaps i want to belong.
Perhaps my motivation is to reach normality.
Perhaps my life is actually a series of action to void things i'm afraid of.
è¯å yawned @ 6:10 PM
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
oops
ahahah.. i realized i call the wrong service center, courtesy of the dual warranty card that i have. haix. anyway, i wrote an email to LG Singapore, and p/s, i'm NOT going to pay tt stupid $80. I'll aunty-argue my way out! watch out, you idiots @ service center!!!
The email is as follows:
Subject: After service requires improvement
Hi,
I've just bought a laptop (model: K1) from your company at the recent PC Show. There are 2 things i would like to highlight to you after being a user of your company:
Firstly, the instructions included in the package is minimum and not exhaustive. For a first time laptop user like me, what you have highlighted in the package only tells me the obvious (like where is the on/off switch), but does not explain to me the functions of the computer. Icons exclusive to laptops are not highlighted. For example, there is no indication that the satellite icon meant that it is the button or wireless connection. No insturctions was also given for proper usage of the card-reader. I DO NOT know how to use it, and can only resort to trial-and-error, resulting in damage in the card reader and my memory stick. Consequently, i'm unfairly charged for causing a damage that you did not warn me about, and i have to pay for the service charge, a new memory stick, as well as put up with the inconvenience at completing my work when the laptop is at the service center for 4 days.
Second, the customer service crew do not know much about laptops. While i do understand that LG's main electronic products are houehold ones, but i would expect a company having a laptop series to have proper support for laptops users. The service center is ignorant on the details about the laptop warranty, and refused to help me understand why i am not being covered for the damaged card reader. All i have received are advice telling me to call up the service center, which i understand are your sub-contractors and which i feel will be unable to make decisions on the company's behalf.
I seriously hope that the up-coming LG service center will provide better services. I believe that yours is a reputable company, and i hope to see improvements that can value-add to your services.
Yours sincerely,
è¯å yawned @ 12:39 PM
the curse of technology
i think i am quite techno-savvy. i mean, i can take apart my pc and meddle with the drives and cards, i can solve software and adware and spyware problems on my com reasonably well even though i am NOT trained, i know what specifications meant and what is the minimum required. yea, i think i am quite techno-savvy.
Yet, i think technology hates me.
Well, it all started when i bought my LG laptop at the PC Show few days ago. That night, i meddled with the settings, tried to get on net wireless etc. fine, although i need to call up the singnet AND the modem support staff, they were practically useless. in the end it's still just me that finally figured out how to connect wirelessly. I took one night and one morning to fix that wireless connection. And on that fateful morning when i felt so full of achievement, i decided to slot my memory stick into the card reader, and.... it jammed inside.
The service center said they'll take 1-2weeks to get the card out. I was furious. Come'on, i paid $1799 for a PC to own it for ONE day???!?!?!! i called up and asked them to hurry. They say they'll rush and do it by wed.
And yesterday, the technician called up and said that he has already extracted the card out (woohoo!) but the card reader is spoilt (ARGH!!!!). The best part is, because i damaged the card reader by slotting the card in incorrectly, it will not be covered under warranty and i gotta pay $80 for servicing charge. If i decide that i want to replace my card reader, they'll hafta call korea side and ask WHEN the parts will arrive in Singapore, and HOW MUCH it'll cost.
I'm like totally @$@!$#!%#@$~@$#! away. First of all, the laptop's instructions are so damn unclear! They didn't tell me how to use the functions in the laptop. They only gave an overview of where the parts are. Oh no, the overview itself is not complete as well. Do you know that i have NO IDEA that there is a switch for the wireless modem until i finally accidentally pressed on it?? Even this wasn't shown in the "overview"!!!
So given me, someone who has no contact with laptops since JC2, and LG, which gave only MINIMUM instructions, HOW CAN THEY CHARGE ME FOR MISUSING THE LAPTOP HENCE CAUSING DAMAGE!!! I even feel that i have the right to ask them to replace the card reader for me free of charge.
Second, their after-service sucks. I called up the LG headquaters trying to find someone who can convince me why i have to pay the $80. And guess wat? all the department says
"er, we only service household appliances here, can u please call our contracted vendor for more information?"
I was like, hello?? i'm not talking about servicing here; i'm asking about the warranty. Surely you guys know the warranty right?
"er, the waranty for household appliances and laptops are different, so..."
Wei. you know i was reading the warranty and there is absolutely no reference to LAPTOP? there's even WASHING MACHINE written behind!
"er, you better call our sub-contractor"
ARGH!!!!!!! @!#$#%$@#~$#%^$!~@#@$%~@#@~$. Damn them. Not only do they have so many red-tapes (as in, you can only enquire about this here and nothing else), the feeling i got is laptops are not part of their company.
...
SOMEONE PLS TELL ME WHY I BOUGHT THIS LAPTOP FROM THIS DAMNED COMPANY!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
è¯å yawned @ 10:33 AM
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
reminder: your assignments deserve to flunk!
Dear MS DOROTHY,
In view of possible bad news, this message is to remind you that YOUR ASSIGNMENT SUCKS AND YOU DESERVE TO FAIL!!!
Reasons for the above mentioned comment are:
- YOUR LIT REVIEW IS NOT A LIT REVIEW!!! IT'S A TOPIC PAPER!!!
- YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO FERMENT ON THE MODELS ASSIGNMENT!!! WHAT KIND OF GRADES DO YOU EXPECT WHEN YOU ONLY SPENT TWO (2) MISERABLE DAYS ON IT???
This message serves only as a reminder in unfortunate circumstances. If you happen to pass, congratulations and ignore this message.
Yours Sincerely
This is a computer generated message. No signature is required.
è¯å yawned @ 10:16 PM
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
the hoohaa over pc upgrade
Over the one week hols, i've finally decided to kick myself and start pc maintenance. After sorting out my files, burning whatever tt's necessary into the CDs, I took the plunge and clicked system recovery. From there, a series of "incidents" happened, and i can nearly say "bye bye" to my one week of hols... T_T
1. after recovery, i switched on the com only to find all my files still there!!! to think i spent so many hours waiting!! @#!$!@#$!
2. after another recovery, i finally got a "clean" com (incidentally, the 2nd recovery took less than an hour.. haix.) As i am happily reinstalling my files, i realised i don't have 2 things -- 1. Microsoft office 2003, becoz apparently some1 tt i can't rmr nv return me; and 2. my printer driver!!!
3. got a copy of office from my friend. so i can now do my assignments... w/out the printer.
4. next day, my com suddenly refuse to connect to the internet!!! the guy from singnet says to open and adjust the lan card... but the hell!! y i can't open the damn cover???!?!
5. decides to bring my pc to the com shop downstairs... haix, i might as well upgrade my system lo...
6. spent 6 hours in the shop. apparently my lan card is integrated so there CANNOT be a misalignment of the card... and the shop keeper seems v interested why i can't connnect to the net?? Anyway, the prob solved on its own in 6hours, and i gotta fork out $299 for the additional 80GB HDD, 512MB RAM and the 64MB graphics card.
7. finally changed the faulty floppy drive in my old com myself... i can save files now!!! finally!! So tt means i can transfer files from the new com to the old for printing easily rite???
8. WRONG. when my old com floppy drive is functional, the new com's decided to die. haix.
9. Bought another floppy drive thinking tt i can install it in the new com myself. screw here, change there... done! ... eh? darn! stupid Compaq custom made their floppy drives so i can't push the button!!! @!#@$##%$^$
10. brought it down to the shop again to see what can be done. i mean, if i can't use the commercially available floppy drives i would want a refund rite? but luckily the guy made some alterations to the commercially available one and tada! can be used... though sometimes the diskette will get stuck...
And there marks the end of the major overhaul of my com. it better last for at least another 2 years man, otherwise all my time, $$ and effort are wasted!
P/s: the great thing now is, becoz my RAM is bigger, i can finally run MSN messenger, open Word, and play Maple all at the same time!!! muahahahaha~~~
è¯å yawned @ 9:42 PM
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