Saturday, July 30, 2005
Stay away from me.
Finally see how unpleasant i am as a person.
As a daughter, as a sister. As a student, as a project mate. As a classmate, as a friend. As an OT. As an owner of the fishes. As a child sponsorer.
As a person, in total.
I'm a failure as far as EQ is concerned. Failed product of humanity.
Please stay away from me to avoid endangering yourself.
And i will strive to isolate myself from contaminating you.
Thank you.
è¯å yawned @ 6:21 PM
Grad is dying??!?!?
ARGH!!!! i can't believe how stupid he can be!!! Grad just swollowed a tablet of the water disinfectant!!!!! OMG~~~~~~~~~~~~
if a human dies after drinking a cup of Fabuloso, wat's stopping a fish from dying after eating a tablet of disinfectant????
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
è¯å yawned @ 5:35 PM
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
a long awaited update hehe~
it's been a long time since i'm at this page... shall tok abit about wat's happening to me lately =)
01. This week is exercise week!
I think i'm really quite healthy this week. Apart from not gorging myself with food during my 3 meals because of poor appetite, i've also been exercising quite alot! Like on tues, i was cycling on the ergometer at 110+ Watts due to misunderstanding of the instructions during Applied physiology Laboratory lesson... Although i cycled at tt speed in short spurts due to poor endurance, it actually totaled to me burning 80+ kCalories!
and then on wed, i went swimming with xuanhong, and i think i broke my record! A rough extimation would be i was swimming non-stop for about 30min... slowly la of course, but it's a great achievement!!
and today, it's pilates. Eversince i got to know tt xuanhong is taking the same course but at a different CC, i got real motivated to do my best! and so today after the lesson, i'm having aches all over my body... shows tt i've had a good workout! but most importanatly, i actually find today's class quite enjoyable!!! which is a miracle!! hahaha...
and for tml, i should be playing tennis! of course juz fooling ard lah... but i think should be another workout le la, since the cycle ergometer test result shows tt i'm so unfit.. so i think ANY exercise will be good for me! =)
02. I got 2 pet fishes!!
yeah! how can i not introduce the new members of the household on my recent updates post?? both are fighting fishes... the first one is a red one, and he's called Coralfish. The 2nd one is a blue one, and though it's abit undecided at the moment, tentavely he shall be called Grad... coz his tail shows a very nice gradient from blue to pink... very mersmerising at times hehe.
i think i'm growing fonder with them as time goes by... and i think they're getting used to me as well! Like how they'll be so silent and still when i'm not around in the room, and how excited they'll get when i step into the room... abit happy, though i got this tingling feeling tt they get excited when they see me becoz they've associated me with food... but at least they make me feel tt the room is once again lively and cute! haha =)
lemme see if i can upload pictures of them here. hehehe~
This is Coralfish... so called becoz it's tail looks like coral to me... spikey spikey one... hehe....
This is Grad... the gradient is nicer if u're looking at his real self... not photo...
è¯å yawned @ 11:18 PM
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
"Sorry"
Sometimes, i think the word "sorry" must be one word that has been 滥用 the most. It's as if by saying that word, any mistake should be forgiven.
I'm not saying that we shouldn't forgive pple for making little mistakes every once in a while. I'm refering to pple who uses this word so blatantly, yet make the same mistake repeatedly.
It's like having a friend that keeps being late, no matter how early you always arrive. It's different if everyone is always late, but it's another matter when everyone is always punctual and that person is always the one that is keeping eveyone waiting. Sometimes i wonder if they don't get the idea.
Or having someone that always forget to bring things, week after week, even though that item is a neccessity. Like my bro who always forget to bring his housekeys when he comes back home from camp during weekends. I'm really tempted to trick my mum out of the house next week, and see wat he'll do if he comes back again without keys.
Really, saying sorry should not only mean "apologising". It should also contain the promise that "i'll change".
But again, having said sorry after a mistake is always better than not saying at all... -shrugs-
è¯å yawned @ 6:09 PM
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
CRD is good for health
Do you know that CRD (Clinaical Reasoning Discussion) presentation to the OT team is good for your health?
I only got to know about it yesterday, when i had to run to NorthPoint Popular to buy transparency and run back to the photocopying shop downstairs, all within 20mins. I realised that the time taken for a slow jog/brisk walk from my house to NorthPoint is actually about 4 mins, and that running in the evening along the main road feels better in comparison with running in the morning in the park. So, i guess CRD has made me do something to my physical health.
It also does wonders to the mental health. The presentation today made me see the limit of my brain's procesing power, how well i can take "scrutinization", "opinions", "comments", "feedback", and a few smirks here and there. How can i not, when after my 15-20min presentation, they made me flash all my transparencies one by one again, so that they can make their '"scrutinization", "opinions", "comments", "feedback", and a few smirks here and there' ? I actually didn't really feel that bad when i was answering their questions and discussing points with them. It's only when XJ jumped to my defense regarding the way i grade the level of assistance for dressing that i suddenly feel very exhausted. On retrospect, i think i held my place quite well. XJ later told me that she felt very tired for me while watching me "ganna shot at"... haha. thanx gal. sorry i took up the whole 1 hour and you had to do yours on monday... didn't expect tt they'll shoot questions for 40mins... *sweatdrop*
Anyway, i must admit that the discussion was fruitful. If i were to accept all therapists' opinion, i'd hafta retype eveything for the school presentation. But each therapist has differences in their way of writing/phrasing, so i shall not follow all suggestions to change .
Lucky they didn't ask me to redo the presentation. *phew*
è¯å yawned @ 7:19 PM
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
things lately...
mmm... am still struggling with CRD at the moment, but i thought i'll juz slack abit and blog abit heh.
Realised i haven't really been blogging enough, given the perplexity and enormosity of emotions and thoughts i've been feeling lately. In CE2B i complain alot here, because i was struggling then. But comparatively, CE3A has been both a struggle and an agony. i juz wish to get it over and be done with. not concerned about my grades... i'll just be happy with a pass.
Now if CE3A has been such a torture, y am i not venting my frustrations out here? hmm. i can't give a proper reason for this. I simply just couldn't find the right words to say wat is bothering me. Or should i say, i simply do not know the reason for my troubles. tt's sad yeah? the only thing i know is that I AM NOT HAPPY HERE.
Maybe it's becoz here, i truly see how incompetent i am. the therapists and their recount of achievements of past students made me see that. But again, i've always known i'm incompetent, so y should that bother me?? hmm. or maybe it's becoz despite a lower case load than expected, i'm still unsure of my treatment plan with my patient? how shd i explain myself during the CRD presentation to the staff?? argh~ how incompetent i am...
*haiz* anyway, it's just 2 more weeks to go. i shall stop dwelling on unhappy thoughts and -shrugs- move on.
btw, here's some recent updates... i've started on pilates class since last thurs. shagged me out mentally and abdominal-ly, but i didn't sweat as much as when i'm following the DVD. the instructor at the CC is actually quite er... "female", and i suddenly feel the difference between attending CC courses alone or with friends. but no matter wat, i'll preservere!!! ahaha.
In the recent GSS, me and my bro has also been "tricked" into buying a tennis racquet each. heh. so basically, although i've kinda skipped 3 of my squash practices already, i in fact had actually started on tennis! hahaha~ talk about diverse interest.
Last week, i found out tt the CC will also be having 2 day courses for computer hardware -- i.e. fixing up ur own pc. woohoo! i've been waiting for this kinda courses since dunno when! i shall sign up this thurs hehe.
Also juz received sms notification tt jap class will resume tml. abit hesitant, coz CRD's this week afterall... need time to finish it up. but it's quite bad to miss the 1st lesson isn't it? haiz.
ah ah... u noe kj's left for japan on sat? well, in her absence, i've become a nanny for her 2 fighting fishes. quite cute, both of them. i quite like seeing them swimming around on my study table... sometimes i'll just rest my head on the table to watch them. I noticed tt ard 9pm they start to become motionless when i switch off the room light, like wat they're doing right now. suspect tt they're sleeping le. how come they sleep so early??? kj, u sleep so early one meh??? i can't bear to switch on the light now... so how am i supposed to do my stuff at night?? haix.
well, according to kj, one of the fish is quite neurotic, which i hafta agree! everytime i walk near to the table, it'll start to get v agitated. and it'll actually challenge my pen when i pointed it towards him hahaha... so amusing. i think most prob i'll be getting aquatic pets of my own after i return these 2 to kj... am deciding between fighting fish, guppies, and tortoise. i prefer tortoise actually, but i'm abit concerned about wat to do with it if it ever grows too big to be reared in the house... i can't set it out free becoz tt's an indirect murder!!! it'll never know how to look for food!! ermm~~~ will think about it somemore haha.
Gambatte fellow OT-ians~ and to fellow NJC-ians, i think i'll be heading back to NJC to help in promoting Occupational Therapy to the current JC students on wed 06 july from 2-4pm. 06 july is also coincidentally the day i'll be presenting my CRD on, and is also the day of OT learning community. So there goes my plan of claiming half day off to loosen up in case my CRD goes EXPECTEDLY screwed up-ly wrong.
è¯å yawned @ 10:37 PM
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