Sunday, July 03, 2005
things lately...
mmm... am still struggling with CRD at the moment, but i thought i'll juz slack abit and blog abit heh.
Realised i haven't really been blogging enough, given the perplexity and enormosity of emotions and thoughts i've been feeling lately. In CE2B i complain alot here, because i was struggling then. But comparatively, CE3A has been both a struggle and an agony. i juz wish to get it over and be done with. not concerned about my grades... i'll just be happy with a pass.
Now if CE3A has been such a torture, y am i not venting my frustrations out here? hmm. i can't give a proper reason for this. I simply just couldn't find the right words to say wat is bothering me. Or should i say, i simply do not know the reason for my troubles. tt's sad yeah? the only thing i know is that I AM NOT HAPPY HERE.
Maybe it's becoz here, i truly see how incompetent i am. the therapists and their recount of achievements of past students made me see that. But again, i've always known i'm incompetent, so y should that bother me?? hmm. or maybe it's becoz despite a lower case load than expected, i'm still unsure of my treatment plan with my patient? how shd i explain myself during the CRD presentation to the staff?? argh~ how incompetent i am...
*haiz* anyway, it's just 2 more weeks to go. i shall stop dwelling on unhappy thoughts and -shrugs- move on.
btw, here's some recent updates... i've started on pilates class since last thurs. shagged me out mentally and abdominal-ly, but i didn't sweat as much as when i'm following the DVD. the instructor at the CC is actually quite er... "female", and i suddenly feel the difference between attending CC courses alone or with friends. but no matter wat, i'll preservere!!! ahaha.
In the recent GSS, me and my bro has also been "tricked" into buying a tennis racquet each. heh. so basically, although i've kinda skipped 3 of my squash practices already, i in fact had actually started on tennis! hahaha~ talk about diverse interest.
Last week, i found out tt the CC will also be having 2 day courses for computer hardware -- i.e. fixing up ur own pc. woohoo! i've been waiting for this kinda courses since dunno when! i shall sign up this thurs hehe.
Also juz received sms notification tt jap class will resume tml. abit hesitant, coz CRD's this week afterall... need time to finish it up. but it's quite bad to miss the 1st lesson isn't it? haiz.
ah ah... u noe kj's left for japan on sat? well, in her absence, i've become a nanny for her 2 fighting fishes. quite cute, both of them. i quite like seeing them swimming around on my study table... sometimes i'll just rest my head on the table to watch them. I noticed tt ard 9pm they start to become motionless when i switch off the room light, like wat they're doing right now. suspect tt they're sleeping le. how come they sleep so early??? kj, u sleep so early one meh??? i can't bear to switch on the light now... so how am i supposed to do my stuff at night?? haix.
well, according to kj, one of the fish is quite neurotic, which i hafta agree! everytime i walk near to the table, it'll start to get v agitated. and it'll actually challenge my pen when i pointed it towards him hahaha... so amusing. i think most prob i'll be getting aquatic pets of my own after i return these 2 to kj... am deciding between fighting fish, guppies, and tortoise. i prefer tortoise actually, but i'm abit concerned about wat to do with it if it ever grows too big to be reared in the house... i can't set it out free becoz tt's an indirect murder!!! it'll never know how to look for food!! ermm~~~ will think about it somemore haha.
Gambatte fellow OT-ians~ and to fellow NJC-ians, i think i'll be heading back to NJC to help in promoting Occupational Therapy to the current JC students on wed 06 july from 2-4pm. 06 july is also coincidentally the day i'll be presenting my CRD on, and is also the day of OT learning community. So there goes my plan of claiming half day off to loosen up in case my CRD goes EXPECTEDLY screwed up-ly wrong.
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